As salam wa wa aliakum wa rehmatullahi wa barakatuh. I have been suffering from bad thoughts about Allah his deen and his prophet. Since 5 years i cannot control myself. When a read Quran i have thouhts about it that i am understanding it in other ways and many strange thoughts. After these kinds of thoughts about Allah i feel i not believe in Allah corretly and if i pray i would be commiting shirk. I am scared about all these thought. I love to read tafsir and want to become a scholar. But these thoughts thoughts which cannot even mention how many they are from eating to walking everthing i do i have thoughts related to Allah they are taking away from seeking knowledge as well as ibaadah.

All perfect praise be to Allah, The Lord of the Worlds. I testify that there is none worthy of worship except Allah, and that Muhammad is His slave and Messenger.

You must ignore these whispers and do not pay any attention to them. You should be concerned about your acts of worship and know that Allah does not cause the reward of those who do good to be lost.

You should strive to gain Islamic knowledge and read easy books whose style is easy for you to understand.

You are upon much goodness in your case, so do not pay any attention to whispers and illusions that you may encounter. The devil wants to prevent you with them from knowledge and worship.

Allah knows best.