Salam… I have committed zina twice and regretted it I told the girl I had plans to marry before looking for help and she forgave me but I still regret it I haven’t committed zina since then but I am confused on what to do and I now know the punishment I would like to receive my punishment as I deserve it but I currently don’t go to a masjid as I am the only Muslim in my house. Please help

All perfect praise be to Allah, The Lord of the Worlds. I testify that there is none worthy of worship except Allah, and that Muhammad is His slave and Messenger.

You did well by regretting the commission of Zina (illicit sexual intercourse), and it is incumbent on you to repent sincerely to Allah, The Exalted. Among the conditions of repentance are showing remorse, giving up the sin, and resolving never to commit it again. If you repent, you should have good expectations about your Lord that He will accept your repentance. The one who repents of a sin is like one who has not sinned. You should not dwell on the past any longer and should look forward to the future and keenly perform good deeds.

As for the punishment to which you referred, if you mean the applicable Hadd (the corporal punishment determined by the Islamic Sharee‘ah), you should know that the implementation of the Hadd is the responsibility of the Muslim ruler and not lay Muslims. Moreover, a Muslim sinner is not legally required to confess his sin to be subjected to the applicable Hadd. Rather, it is better for him to conceal his sin and should not disclose it to anyone.

It is adequate to repent and keep this sin a secret between you and your Lord. If you wish to marry this girl, there is nothing wrong with that if she repented and became upright because the Sharee‘ah urged Muslims to marry religiously committed women.

Abu Hurayrah narrated that the Prophet, sallallahu ‘alayhi wa sallam, said: “A woman is married for four (reasons): her wealth, noble descent, beauty, and religion. Choose the religious woman lest your hand is stuck to dust (i.e., lest you be a loser).” [Al-Bukhari and Muslim]

Allah knows best.